This song was stuck in my brainwaves for a couple of days… It’s kinda odd that I am struck by words that makes or break my esteem… but I guess its part of the growing process…

I wake up telling myself, I’m beautiful just the way I am.

It works most of the time…

Nicole

There are some issues I would like to write it out on public domain, but I don’t think it would be wise of me to do so, lest I get myself into a whole pot of soup.

We all know how cruel the corporate world is. No one is spared, unless you’re your own boss that is. As paid salary workers, there’s more than meets the eye.

I’m through my first year of work, maybe about 15 months already? I never dislike my job scope, to set the record straight, but rather, something else (sounds vague? some of my friends will know what I am referring to though)

Since then, it affected my temperament. I admit, I’m the kind who can’t really keep my cool when subjected to very intense pressure, as I tend to keep things to myself, and that’s when I explode pretty badly.

I didn’t escape pretty well this time around, resulting in causing grief to some of my friends around me. My bad. My bad. It has blown over, and its time to finish up what’s left of my personal to-do list.

xoxo,
Nicole

The past 72 hours ain’t an easy period to pass. In fact, during which, I never felt this down for quite a while. Looking back, yes, its silly, but then again, I admit, I ain’t strong enough to resolve it as yet. It will take a while to blow over, and till then, I’m taking it nice and slow (I hope)

Funny how badly I take towards some work issues, but I guess I shouldn’t let it affect me too much, after all, it’s work (to put it blatantly). Dealing it with professionalism than attaching too much feelings into it will make it easier to cope when stupid things happen.

The storm will pass, so they say, and yes, this too will pass.

A happier and stronger me will emerge from this dark shell.

To the friends who care, thank you.
To the friends who accepts me as who I am, a double thank you.
To the friends who constantly looks out for me, infinite thanks.

To the bf, thanks for being there for me.

Nicole

Just One
Unknown

One song can spark a moment,
One flower can wake the dream
One tree can start a forest,
One bird can herald spring.

One smile begins a friendship,
One handclasp lifts a soul.
One star can guide a ship at sea,
One word can frame the goal

One vote can change a nation,
One sunbeam lights a room
One candle wipes out darkness,
One laugh will conquer gloom.

One step must start each journey.
One word must start each prayer.
One hope will raise our spirits,
One touch can show you care.

One voice can speak with wisdom,
One heart can know what’s true,

One life can make a difference,
You see, it’s up to you!

I guess, all I need is just One very thing.

You. Yes, my friend, you.

Nicole

You know you are in for a rough ride when faced with major deadlines. Deadlines which literally, leaves you dead if you fail to.

I’m in one at the moment. Not particularly enjoyable, but it’s part of my job to ensure that these projects get delivered.

Sorry if my temperament is kinda short circuited. Whilst I take time to come to terms with personal issues, please bear with me.

xoxo
Nicole

At this point, walking into the chapter of 25.

To be frank, being in the mid-twenties, feels like its more of being in the prime time of being an adult. More decisions to make, more issues to consider. It dawned on to me that it’s never easy to arrive at some decisions, because it will mean hurting myself, or others around me.

But more often than not, I end up hurting myself, because I put others first. Perhaps its time to start thinking for myself.

Troubled.

Nicole

Dear Nicole,

Congratulations on your “Level Up” to level 25. It’s a day marked with a joyous occasion, of candle blowing, tender loving, and simply have a good time.

You overcame trials and tribulations to this day. As you break away from the past, a better present and more awesome future awaits you.

I’m glad to see that you have become a stronger and happier person. Go forth, and do what you wanna do.

Open up Chapter 25 with a big bang!

Oh yes, here’s a song for you:

PS: On the other hand, Happy 2nd Anniversary of your relationship.

From,
The Nicole of Chapter 24

As I’m writing this, Chapter 24 is drawing to a close, and approaching the next, Chapter 25.

Many things has happened, and too much to sum them all in one post. But to simply put it, it’s a roller coaster ride. Its also towards August, I finally started accepting myself. It’s heartening to know that I manage to break through the list of issues to conquer, and it feels good to be able to know that I too, can achieve it

Things have been dealt with, and it’s time to move on. Precious lessons been learnt, and it’s all good for me… and without company of the lovely friends, the support, encouragement, I doubt I would have made it this far.

The road ahead won’t be this smooth, but at least, I’m ready to face what comes ahead of me.

Its been fun having turned 24, but 25 beckons!

XOXO,
Nicole

So damn hooked to Project Diva 2, thanks to the bf PSP. -.-”

Here’s one of my fave… featuring Luka and Miku! I love love these vocaloids very much

Of course, the animation is a welcome distraction during gameplay. Unfortunately, that always cost me my combo points!

On a side note, learning to smile with the eyes certainly makes one look different. LOL! Something that I learnt from America’s Next Top Model. Haha.

Have a good thursday ahead yeah?!

XOXO
Nicole

Whimsical Wednesday.

Its a relief I might see the glimmer light at the end of the tunnel. Gosh, I can’t wait to see the status of the project becomes “CLOSED”. Good riddance.

Sure, the project has brought along up’s and down’s, but I’m glad through it all, His Grace covered me through, and the miracle came forth

Fingers crossed, I really want a fantastic weekend this week.

Nicole