*Long Post* *Apologies*

Mood: Stressed, Burnt OUT~!!!

Spinning: Linkin Park songs (Lyrics reflect my feelings)

In The End

Pushing Me Away

My December

Breaking The Habit

It seems to me I never manage to quite recover from the previous bout of burntout… thanks to a person. *Note: I dun want pple to think I am bearing grudges, but seriously, having to clear up the mess is HELL* If u informed me, at least i know. but going Missing? so sucky…
I slogged so hard… ensure events run smoothly… wat i get? Fall sick on the actual day when I am supposed to teach. Do U know how rotten I felt? I felt like I have failed… and then negative feedback. I know I cannot please everyone, but do they know how much hardwork and effort put in? Do you know I slept so little? To the extent fall sick with fever? jeopardise my xmas?

I admit, I cannot sleep late, and its still hard for me to adjust. Well, guess I will see myself falling sick more often… Sad… The Guy worries… But what can I do? Responsibility over Health?

I still owe tutorials to be done for Flash… I know I know I know… But my time is eaten by DD (ad-hoc event). My studies leh? Dun need to prepare isit? Saddled with responsiblities is good, but too much of it can KILL. I MEAN IT.

I feel SO extremely burnt out already…Â The Guy also… ALL we want is a little break, not rushing like crazy over deadlines… My health is already suffering… constant back pain… haiz… meetings meetings and more meetings…

APOLOGIES FOR CAPS….

I NEED A BREAK…Â I HATE THIS… I AM BURNT…. STRESSED…Â I GIVE MY BEST… OVERWHELMED… MOUNTING TASKS…. PRESSING DEADLINES… FALLEN…

ALL I WANT? A LIL BREAK? PLEASEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ?????????????????? LOSS OF SLEEP, APPETITE… NO MOOD… LONG FACE…

CANNOT EVEN CONCENTRATE ON LECTURES…. TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT….

Haiz… Only 2nd week of school…. SO MUCH TO DO….
:(:(:(

On the lighter side, I am glad to have pple who are willing to help and cooperate… that consoles me somewhat…

With all that pressing deadlines… I will have to try meet them…Â But i dun want to tax myself further… I WILL BREAKDOWN AND START CRYING… I AM STRESSED ENOUGH… I DUN NEED MORE PRESSURE… I DUN NEED MORE DEADLINES…

SAVE ME…

I still cannot believe I spent 7 DAMNED WEEKS cleaning up mess and getting things done correctly… YET MY LAST WEEK OF BREAK WAS BURNT… DID I GET REST? I AM SO PISSED…

SO ANGRY, UPSET, SAD, SICK, TIRED, MOODY, GRUMPY, VIOLENT MOOD SWINGS, INSOMNIA, RESTLESS, LISTLESS, IRRITATED….

I wanna be happy once again…Â I need to be happy, else I cannot excel wat i wanna do…

Thanks to all who put up with this long woe pouring post…till here…. dun ask me why… i need to heal… thanks…

I think WE owe pple some explanation. Gotta draft email asap…..

The Guy: We will go through this together….

Dila: Jia You~!! Good Luck to Uni Application…

Burnt….

The Gal

Nicole