sickening pple… they just seat without asking whether anyone seating… freaks… invade my privacy… damn them… then sleep somemore… wat they think this space is for.

$@#$*)($&*!#@&%*(!@^$(*!)@$&!()*@&*!($^*(%*!@#^$*(!
i am so damn pissed… go to hell…

din really take lunch… cos too much oil in the veges… and had to force myself eat 1/4 of the packet… to The Guy: dun feel bad ok? Its the time of the month for me…Â so its alright…

Typing away in sac… trying to code my program… sigh… so much to do… PC and lappy where are u?

Feel like curling up in bed…. feeling so sick… awww….

The Gal

Nicole

heya… long long long time since i last blogged here… well there is a good reason to that… cos my laptop was bogged by a hardware issue =) haha… its the stupid CMOS… intermittent problem… well will get my lappy back by tml i think.. rite now using The Guy pc to do all my work and all.. yada yada yada…

haha so here i am… with my blog post updates… too many things to update though… and a bit into festive mood… =) this time around celebrating new year with The Guy =) this is getting fun ^^ yippe…

okie maybe i should start telling ya peeps wat has happened so far

20th January 2006
Interviewed a sub committee member wanna be, and glad that i did, else i would have lost a talent.. hehe… other wise, not much to mention, except dinner date with The Guy…

21st January 2006

TP open hse~!!! Last day though… Went there with my sis… wanted The Guy to tag along but decided to let him take a break cos he sent me home on Friday, 20th Jan. Din wanna tire him out also… thus went to the open hse with my sister….

was not too impressed… sad to say… din expect 2006 open hse to be not as good as the 2005 open hse… where everything started and ended with a big bang…. oh well.. the goodie bag was nice… viewed exhibits of some of the final year project… nth much there also…

then went to a canteen for some lunch before i headed back to school for DD meeting…

DD meeting went fine and lasted 3 hours… thats usual… well… around there ba… the committee decided on the logo and adjustments still have to be made for the final version, well that’s on down and more to go… next up, the posters, banners as well as postcards… and the webby of course… hehe… was not too bad… but had to endure the cold room… which is of course a freezer, thanks to me in a short skirt… =) after that The Guy and I headed out to Macdonalds for dinner… hehe…

Oh I bought The Guy a new wallet, intend to give to him on v’dae itself… welli hope he likes it though… its a brown leather wallet… hehe… =)

22nd January 2006

Din do much work, slept for most of the day, was feeling unwell and tired too… thus woke up at 9.30 am in the morning, help my parents decorate the house for CNY.. hehe… had my hands full of sticking and hanging things here and there… so happy…

then napped for 3 hours~!! instead of the planned half an hr nap… =.= so tired… haha… basically just chilled out the whole day though….

hello =) bluey mondays as usual… just went for my first lab of the semsester~!! Logic Design… Hehe… Not too bad… very fun to create circuits =)

Something is wrong with my laptop… need to send for service asap..

Tata

The Girl

Nicole

Okie, I am back… Today The Guy came to my place to study =) So glad he could come, and we did clear up our tangling boolean algebra… EE2004 and CSC104 learn about the same stuff.. so we can help each other out ^^

Anyway, recruitment booth will be on tomorrow and gotta help out to mann the booth… =) hopefully all the remaining portfolios will be taken up…

Still feeling burnt and stress la… but its much better managed now… thanks to all who have read my blog =)

3rd week of school and its getting more and more busy, good news is my lab starts on 4th week for java… Muahahhaa… but it also means, loads of preparation to do liao… gotta get started… =)

Logic Design is getting more fun and cheem, so is discrete maths…Â java still can take it la… lol… language also.. its amazing…

The Guy and I are still very much busy… and I know The Guy has not been blogging often…Â he is ok… just busy… like me… strange i still can find time to blog… oh well… haha i need to destress too k?

Loving my new hairstyle, just in time for the new year =) hehe…

I’m feeling very lucky to have The Guy… Not to brag, but we can get along very well =)

Okie… said too much… still got lab to finish…

Tata

The Gal

nicole

Yesterday’s meeting went on quite well, except there are some stuff that got me so pissed off… geez… well recruitment booth is up on monday… and i am down for the duty with deborah ^^

Got loads to be done… till i blog later at night.. .tata

The Gal

Nicole

Fancy a meeting at 4 pm in City Area? DAMN ok… I am so pissed… >< so frustrated… Thank goodness I have the company of The Guy and Risuchia =) else I think I will go mad…

I am still feeling burnt… Haiz… slowly ba… Health suffering as usual… wat to do? But I know one thing is not gonna be affected, MY STUDIES. Its my only ticket to a better life… for myself, and my parents =) of course this includes The Guy =) hee

well, I also have a lot of things to blog, but its better left untouched for a while… I am not happy with the way the management is right now in DD. But my power is so small, wat can I do? :S

argh… neck pain and shoulder pain … haiz… and I am damn broke le still want me to go to expensive cafes and restaurant… My family ain’t well off ok…

Tata… got to go for the meeting….

The Gal
Nicole

still burnt out somewhat… I DESPERATELY need a break… assignments are piling… and once again… *CRIES* haiz…

lemme see wat i need to do

• Revision (Damn standard)
• Tutorials
• Lab Preparation

Argh… Shoot… More eca matters to solve…

BURNT TO CRISP

The Gal

Nicole

*Long Post* *Apologies*

Mood: Stressed, Burnt OUT~!!!

Spinning: Linkin Park songs (Lyrics reflect my feelings)

In The End

Pushing Me Away

My December

Breaking The Habit

It seems to me I never manage to quite recover from the previous bout of burntout… thanks to a person. *Note: I dun want pple to think I am bearing grudges, but seriously, having to clear up the mess is HELL* If u informed me, at least i know. but going Missing? so sucky…
I slogged so hard… ensure events run smoothly… wat i get? Fall sick on the actual day when I am supposed to teach. Do U know how rotten I felt? I felt like I have failed… and then negative feedback. I know I cannot please everyone, but do they know how much hardwork and effort put in? Do you know I slept so little? To the extent fall sick with fever? jeopardise my xmas?

I admit, I cannot sleep late, and its still hard for me to adjust. Well, guess I will see myself falling sick more often… Sad… The Guy worries… But what can I do? Responsibility over Health?

I still owe tutorials to be done for Flash… I know I know I know… But my time is eaten by DD (ad-hoc event). My studies leh? Dun need to prepare isit? Saddled with responsiblities is good, but too much of it can KILL. I MEAN IT.

I feel SO extremely burnt out already…Â The Guy also… ALL we want is a little break, not rushing like crazy over deadlines… My health is already suffering… constant back pain… haiz… meetings meetings and more meetings…

APOLOGIES FOR CAPS….

I NEED A BREAK…Â I HATE THIS… I AM BURNT…. STRESSED…Â I GIVE MY BEST… OVERWHELMED… MOUNTING TASKS…. PRESSING DEADLINES… FALLEN…

ALL I WANT? A LIL BREAK? PLEASEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ?????????????????? LOSS OF SLEEP, APPETITE… NO MOOD… LONG FACE…

CANNOT EVEN CONCENTRATE ON LECTURES…. TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT….

Haiz… Only 2nd week of school…. SO MUCH TO DO….
:(:(:(

On the lighter side, I am glad to have pple who are willing to help and cooperate… that consoles me somewhat…

With all that pressing deadlines… I will have to try meet them…Â But i dun want to tax myself further… I WILL BREAKDOWN AND START CRYING… I AM STRESSED ENOUGH… I DUN NEED MORE PRESSURE… I DUN NEED MORE DEADLINES…

SAVE ME…

I still cannot believe I spent 7 DAMNED WEEKS cleaning up mess and getting things done correctly… YET MY LAST WEEK OF BREAK WAS BURNT… DID I GET REST? I AM SO PISSED…

SO ANGRY, UPSET, SAD, SICK, TIRED, MOODY, GRUMPY, VIOLENT MOOD SWINGS, INSOMNIA, RESTLESS, LISTLESS, IRRITATED….

I wanna be happy once again…Â I need to be happy, else I cannot excel wat i wanna do…

Thanks to all who put up with this long woe pouring post…till here…. dun ask me why… i need to heal… thanks…

I think WE owe pple some explanation. Gotta draft email asap…..

The Guy: We will go through this together….

Dila: Jia You~!! Good Luck to Uni Application…

Burnt….

The Gal

Nicole

I am loving every moment that I am busy… hehe… hmm got loads to say… but first things first… Homework time…

When i am done, shall return here ^^

tata

The Gal

Nicole

i dunno why… maybe its just me being impatient… i get pissed off easily when my plans are screwed up… =(

is it because of my impatience that makes me give up on things so easily? where is my confidence? where is my cheerfulness? where is the level of health and fitness i used to enjoy? I feel so sick…

Being sick with flu ain’t nice at all… my tastebuds are ruined… my nose are stuffed… and i practically feel so sick… nose goes drip drip drip….

and rainy weather makes me feel so gloomy… so dull and so no mood at all… haiz… and i am always feeling so so so cold…

I dunno la… I feel overwhlemed… a lot of responsibility… yet no time to relax… my health is sacrificed… cos I feel the strain of being sick… I need a break… take me somewhere to relax…let me indulge in swensen’s ice cream again…. i am so looking forward… but then… haiz….

Maybe I should start trying and immersed myself with more e-learning, research and blah blah… i dunno la… i simply cannot adjust to sleeping at odd hours… cos i tried and fell sick… =S but if i sleep too early, i cannot finish my work.. .Sobz more…

blah blah blah… thats it…I had enough…

from now on… I guess I should keep trying, and not to be afraid of making mistakes… =)

still feeling gloomy…

The Gal

Nicole

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to The Guy:

I love you so much, I am sorry….