The Gal – Nicole

yawnz… wat a day… halfway thru the java Lab2… due on friday…shucks… >< trying my best ba

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The Gal

Nicole

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I dunno if it is just me… I am feeling burnt… over burnt in fact… loads and loads of lab reports piling up… and i still dun understand discrete mathematics =( my shoulders and back are hurting much more again… now its my neck muscles…

i dun even feel like smiling… consider that i have not done work for DD… =S i dunno how on earth can i rush everything out…Â i dun want to sleep, dun want to eat… just let me die…

i dun even have the courage to smile… The Guy is still ill… i dun have the mood to celebrate vdae anymore… i dun even have the mood to study… i really just wanna die… its totally impossible to finish everything…one deadline after another…

i wanna skip all meetings…can I? can i just lose myself and go to the beach and scream~???

I can’t… cos i am tied down by all those work… i have no life… even The Guy is not spared…

right now i am seating in sac…dehydrating..cos i forgot to bring my water bottle…

i dun wanna organise things anymore… so taxing on me…

i just wanna lock myself in the toilet and cry… i really want to do… everything i do… it dun seem right… even though i mean well… i gave my best…my everything… it doesn’t matter how hard i try…

time is so valuable… what can i do?

i tried so hard… am i appreciated? does anyone understand how I feel? DOES ANYONE KNOW? I FEEL HELPLESS… i cannot even be there for him when he is sick…

I simply pray everything will work itself out… i am so exhuasted… i see myself falling deep into the hands of the depression reaper…

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The Gal

nicole

heya, feeling super drained… had a hard time with my java lab 1… sigh.. manage to finish and submit it though… but then haiz… feels so out of touch with it… >< here i am seating in the library, trying to do some stuff... before ehading to the logic design lab to work on my lab... then later go home and whack lab 2 that is due this friday =.= apparently my technical report writing is also due on friday itself... argh... >< kill me... =S i hope i can finish the assignments though...

Speaking of which, I am lagging behind in studies... haiz... so many deadlines to beat... >< oh and got a quiz too.. the lang quiz.. haven learn it yet... must finish 4 chapters by TUE~!!! which is tml =(

haiz... guess my weekends is burnt too... >< but i try to set sometime to go out with The Guy, and hopefully he recovers well enough to go out ><

haiz... this is such a bad start of the year.. =(

The Gal

nicole

DISCLAIMER: Below are the expressiongs of my humble opinions and in no way are they representing many pple views.

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reading the article in today straits times… it reflects upon..young girls dating oler men… it sort of reminded me that i was one of them….

like them, i thought dating an older guy would lead to a more stable relationship… its true he splurged or spend alot for me… but i din ask for it…neither i wanted it too…

its true u can get to go to different restaurants to eat each date… but then… he also help me to solve my problems… giving me insights to do things in life… thats the plus part of the relationship… its also very true he can provide u security than guys at your age… but i beg to differ…

i half agree with it… lol… but then… it wun last in the long run… so thus here i am with The Guy, whom are of the same age.. =)

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Later gonna go to my youngest aunt hse to visit as well as to lug my lappy and go do work lol… =)

Get well soon The Guy…

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The Gal

Nicole

wat i want (my wishlist as of 4th Feb 2006)

• Bugbug cushion

• thats so cute… my first must~have… muhahaha

• another darker colour can?

• needs another timepiece soon

• thinks my mum gonna get for me…

• lost the grey one my aunt gave to me… sobsob…

• a bigger version one? hahaha

• If i manage to save up la…

• My purple one broke

• A beary bear pandent one?

hehe…. dun get too stresss… this are my wish only… lol…

as for valentine… i just one something inexpensive… =) sincere can liao

heya… stuck at home… initially arranged to go out with The Guy, however, he is not feeling really well, thus he had to stay at home and rest… week 7 is the week where valentine’s day falls… but he got so many quizzes to study for. thus may not celebrate it after all.

Actually wanna go to East Coast to chill…but then… haiz… what to do? health more important…everyday is vdae… to me…

to The Guy: dun feel bad ok? otherwise u majke me feel awful… dun worry…

Speaking of which, both our work are piling up… and that external commitments are zapping more energy than usual… ><

I pray that both our grades wun slip… and that we will be able to achieve our goals…

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The Gal

Nicole