I dunno wat to say here, I feel very stressed out now… I know I am not alone, somehow, its just that i wunder if i can make it thru or not… where everyone in uni is on par with each other, or better than each other…
sometimes, i wunder, if i am not in uni, what will i be doing now? will i be happier? will i be more successful? yet a part of me tells me i cannot stop at poly level of education… i need more knowledge to survive in this knowledged based economy… if i stop now, i wun earn big bucks..and my hope to lift my family out of the lower class income level will be dashed… not that i despise that i am from lower income family… but i want my parents to have a better life… they deserved it. For bringing me up.
Sometimes I have to worry abt finances, becos my dad has retired… and me and my sister are moving on the education ladder… my parents forbid me to work full-time… but i am free to take part time and free lance jobs… they might not pay well, at least i will be able to support my own expenses, without relying on them too much… my savings are depleting fast…
I feel the need to push myself and achived very good results… uni fees are expensive. and i dun want them to feel that they wasted so much money on me…
Since young, my grades have been mediocore, it was not till poly that i started excelling. I pressure myself alot, which i admit.. I have no choice, i give up now, i will regret…
Thats reality. Somehow, I have no choice but carry on. carry on with wat i needed to do… Sometimes i just want a shoulder i can cry on, someone who love and care for me (I found u, The Guy)
Hard-pressed
The Gal
Nicole
Feedback