The Gal – Nicole

Congratulations to Geek Terminal on their official opening on 30.05.2007. Am happy to be invited by Irene and Shawn of Geek Terminal, together with fellow Pingsters. Yay! Its also U-zyn and Ridz birthday too…

Fellow Pingsters there include Hendri, Theresia, Ruiping, U-zyn, Ridz, Tstar, Ntt, Dk, ECL, HHDU, Brennan, Estee, CJ, Adrian and who else ah? Paiseh if I miss out any names

Brought along Theresia, Mabel as well as Ruiping along to the launch party. This is their first time there as well as meeting the rest of the members of Ping.sg. =) Am glad that they all 3 also have won prizes too in the lucky draw. lol. What a coincidence. Glad that they enjoyed themselves there as much as I did.

The place is swarming with so many people that I had difficulty walking through the crowd. Food was great, the drinks are fantastic, and oh yes, I won the first prize in lucky draw! I drank a glass of red wine, a glass of strawberry sparkling, as well as a cup of cappacino… ooh, makes me feel so shiok so happy… hee… Its an Eubiq power track! yay! That’s the very same thing that Geek Terminal have too! Seems like everyone in Ping.sg wants it if I don’t it. Wonders how much can it fetch in an auction ? *Joking* Definitely not for sale. *another post on the eubiq stick*

The goody bag was great, but I think I might have take the wrong bag, because there are so many things missing in that bag. Irene replied to me on the ping.sg forum. A quick check with kevin’s post (where there is a photo on the goody bag). Sigh. Perhaps I took the wrong bag lor. Nevermind. Oh well. But the first prize has made up for everything

After that, we went to the oub towers area to celebrate U-zyn and Ridz birthday. The cake that Adrian baked was lovely, and it tasted very rich and good. haha, din stay long, as I need to get back home soon. Hendri sent me home. hee… and we had supper along the way, since we end up feeling hungry. lol.

Am now waiting for the pictures.

The Gal
Nicole

Apologies if my post sounds too cheem lol…

I thought I found my dream when I was studying in a polytechnic, and that’s to be an IT specialist in a certain area (can’t recall). For a while, that was what I thought I really wanted. I wasted no time then, pouring through as many books on skills and techniques, did my course work with no less than 100 % effort. That saw me rise up thriough the academic ranks. I am consistently placed in the top 25 % for throughout my diploma course. The sweetest moment is to be awarded an award for my final year project. My team and I worked really hard for it. It felt good to be interviewed by a prospective company before you even sat for the final exams.

And partly, the dream to enter University saw me working even harder. Work so hard till fall sick also must continue to work. I pushed myself alot. So much till my friends have to stop me. During that time, there are few polytechnic grads can make it to the local Unis, so I had to consistently pushed myself to work even harder. I got rewared of course, seeing my gd grades made me happy, my confidence grew, and I am really glad about it. Till I entered University. And all hell broke loose.

Things changed, and I found myself on the opposite of the academic ladder. It hit me hard, and my ego and pride was shattered. I did not expect myself to get so awful grades. From the average A to B+ grader to a C and D average grader ? It hit really hard. From that moment, I lost that dream. I had no more will power to push through it anymore. A degree is too common these days. I take because I must, and to complement my diploma. A diploma holder earn lower than a degree holder.

As I progress through the course, I wonder, is it still my dream to persue IT? No doubt I have a strong interest in it, but I feel that its not my dream anymore. Whatever that mystery dream is, I will wait till it strucks me. Surely, seeing people who have persued and been successful of their dreams inspires me alot.

Will my family support me? Will my friends support me? I dunno the answer. I wrote about dreams once.

I guess I am still young, but time is ticking.

The Gal
Nicole

Ok, I got tagged to do this by Listya. And after I finish this tag, I dun want to tag anyone

Here are the 5 reasons why I blog

1) Record down events that has happened

2) Share with my readers stuff I come across while surfing the net

3) My gateway to reveal my inner thoughts and ideas

4) Rave and rant over things

5) Let people know how I am

Ain’t this tag simple to complete

The Gal
Nicole

It’s only after VillageTalk, then I realize that the call to persue my dreams has become even stronger. The urge to dare to dream, and realize the dream cries out even more frequently, but what exactly is stopping me? Money? Support? or the Pressure of being mocked at? or being Laughed at ? I really don’t know. Oh isit I don’t have the guts to do it? There are fears which are stopping me. I am really afraid. Call me chicken or something, but sometimes I find it so hard to even try to chase the dream… To make it blatantly simple, I failed even before I tried.

How much am I to risk everything ? How willing am I to work for it ? I really don’t know. Perhaps I am scared about the loans to payback when I graduate. Perhaps. I can’t survive without a payslip. I want to work freelance but I am not skilled enough.

I don’t know whats my next step, for I am still searching for the courage and guts to take my first step.

Should I continue to dream? Should I start chasing a dream? Should I ?

Or should I just risk it all and try?

The Gal
Nicole

This song inspires me. Or rather, I am able to associate the meanings with myself…

MetroLyrics

Linkin Park What I’ve Done Lyrics
In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

[Pre-Chorus]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

[Chorus]
I’ve faced myself
To cross out what I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what I’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
Well I cleaned this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty

[Pre-Chorus]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

[Chorus]
I’ve faced myself
To cross out what I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what I’ve done

For what I’ve done
I’ll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done

[Chorus]
I’ve faced myself
To cross out what I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what I’ve done

What I’ve done
Forgiving what I’ve done

What I would like to ask myself is… What I’ve Done?

The Gal
Nicole

A lazy sunday… with a cup of mocha in hand at home, what bliss! My grouse would be the hot weather! Its so hot !! Omg. The bad news of not getting a room allocated to me during stage 1 has just begun to sunk in. Truly, it sucks. Oh well, I am now placed in Stage 2 and hopefully, I will be allocated a room soon. Here are some excerpts of the letter…

I refer to your application for admission into the Hall of Residence in the academic year 2007/08 and regret to inform you that you are unsuccessful in your application. Your application is placed in Stage 2 as you do not meet the minimum ECA requirement. For your information, the General Cut-off weight (GCW) is: male GCW is 14 and female GCW is 13 .

I am not very happy that the General Cut-off weight is so high. Sigh, it matters that I did not have an ECA, and that’s because its to stop my grades from sliding further. =X

However, you will be put on the Stage 2 waiting list which is ranked in descending order of weights. This list will be processed when the last person on the Stage 1 waiting list with minimum ECA requirement is offered a place. Should there be vacancies in any of the Halls in the course of the entire academic year; the first person on the list will be notified and so on until the last person on the list is made an offer. Choice of Halls and rooms will be disregarded.

Does this mean I need not apply during ad-hoc application? since I am placed on waiting list?

All these leave me with disappointment.

The Gal
Nicole

Went to VillageTalk at NTU Technoplaza last night, and its a trip worthwhile, even though I was quite tired from BlogOut lol… but it was great, considering I manage to meet Adrianna and Paddy for the first time in person Its nice meeting them.

Pretty enjoyed myself listening to the speakers, but topics like politics and activism were a bit too heavy to be absorbed by my tired brain. Kinda prefer Light-hearted topics… haha, but overall, food, place, were great, small and cosy, it was filled to the max.

I would prefer that it can start earlier, to give more time for networking and mingling around with everyone *just my opinion* But overall, the event is great, and its inspring me to go all out and persue my dream =)

Kudos to Ridzuan and Kelvin for organising VillageTalk1. Am looking forward to VillageTalk2.

The Gal
Nicole

Live from NTU Technoplaza! Reporting live, after dinner that is hahaha, food is great! yup, and the location, although some of the talks has passed already. It was good to meet Paddy in person for the first time. =)

The topics range from music to politics, to space travel, and the location is really lovely for such talks to be conducted. Ok, will blog more about it when i get home.

The Gal
Nicole

Somtimes I dunno why I bothered to do certain things. Sometimes I dunno why I can’t do them as well as I expected. Sometimes I dunno why things dun turn out nicely as it should be. I can only sit tight, pray and seek solace before I collaspse out of sheer exhuastion. work is gonna start soon, and thats a whole new bunch of worries. (maybe i am a worry freak by nature)

I only hope everything will turn out right. How I just want to seat down, sip coffee or wine and talk. But the thing is, who is there for me to talk to?

The Gal
Nicole

Yesterday is so happening la. From my 17th monthniversary, to setting up equipment for work, and then to blogout @ geek terminal. Overall, the event was quite alright, but it certainly has alot of room for improvements!

Hendri and me!

The collage I randomly created whilst arranging the photos to be scanned.

Found the rest of the pingsters – dk, uzyn, ridz, ntt, micheal, cj when Hendri and I arrived at Geek Terminal.

Also, it was my first time meeting Genie.

Geek Terminal has since undergone another change, and this time they added many more cool stuff there, and oh yes, they reviewed the pricing of their food and drinks. yay! hee…

The food provided at the event is really nice, but I kinda went high on coffee – drank 2 cups – Latte and Mocha. Oh yes, and I drank some white wine too! yum hahaha… *very sober*

Took picts with Adrian and Ntt with Hendri and myself as well…

This one is with DK and Adrian…

With Estee the babe! XD

I dunno how come the scanned photos turned out to be yellow.

Blogout, organized by TDM (The Digital Movement) turned out to be quite alright. Thumbs up for the opportunity to meet so many people from different communities, from microsoft to tomorrow.sg, ping.sg, and many more! Thumbs down to the too relaxed atmosphere, where people seemed to be distracted and not showing enough respect for the speakers at the stage area. It didn’t help that the acostics and the network were not so good that night, but the discussion went really well…

Once again, Kudos to the team at TDM.

The Gal
Nicole