Apologies if my post sounds too cheem lol…

I thought I found my dream when I was studying in a polytechnic, and that’s to be an IT specialist in a certain area (can’t recall). For a while, that was what I thought I really wanted. I wasted no time then, pouring through as many books on skills and techniques, did my course work with no less than 100 % effort. That saw me rise up thriough the academic ranks. I am consistently placed in the top 25 % for throughout my diploma course. The sweetest moment is to be awarded an award for my final year project. My team and I worked really hard for it. It felt good to be interviewed by a prospective company before you even sat for the final exams.

And partly, the dream to enter University saw me working even harder. Work so hard till fall sick also must continue to work. I pushed myself alot. So much till my friends have to stop me. During that time, there are few polytechnic grads can make it to the local Unis, so I had to consistently pushed myself to work even harder. I got rewared of course, seeing my gd grades made me happy, my confidence grew, and I am really glad about it. Till I entered University. And all hell broke loose.

Things changed, and I found myself on the opposite of the academic ladder. It hit me hard, and my ego and pride was shattered. I did not expect myself to get so awful grades. From the average A to B+ grader to a C and D average grader ? It hit really hard. From that moment, I lost that dream. I had no more will power to push through it anymore. A degree is too common these days. I take because I must, and to complement my diploma. A diploma holder earn lower than a degree holder.

As I progress through the course, I wonder, is it still my dream to persue IT? No doubt I have a strong interest in it, but I feel that its not my dream anymore. Whatever that mystery dream is, I will wait till it strucks me. Surely, seeing people who have persued and been successful of their dreams inspires me alot.

Will my family support me? Will my friends support me? I dunno the answer. I wrote about dreams once.

I guess I am still young, but time is ticking.

The Gal
Nicole