My mind is a blank at the moment. I think I need to really isolate myself for 1 hr, and sit through some mediation. Seems a bit out of focus at the moment. Not a good sensation to be put through, honestly.

on a personal level, I am glad I started making changes and taking steps to get to where and what I want in the some time near future… there’s nothing wrong to plan and execute. lol. but I guess the real hurt comes is when people around you don’t really seem to understand it… that’s ok… even if it’s just one person who supports me, that’s good enough. Someday, somehow, they too will see it… That has been my belief ever since.

These days, I lived my life like there is no tomorrow… and that’s the driving force in my life these days… I enjoy moments of solitude, moments of fantastic company, moments of excitement, and etc… In short, perfect moments for myself.

I don’t deny I have changed, but if the changes are for the better of myself, I am more than happy to embrace that change. It’s something that I always wanted, and now that I have got it, all the more I need to cherished it, and treasure it.

The Gal
Nicole

Its indeed rare for me not to post any new entries for 7 days in a row. Rare indeed. For it’s known to most people that I am an active blogger. Oh well.

Yes, people would have read our blog posts as well as infer from twitter would know that my relationship has hit a very rough patch…. So rough that it still stings the memory, and digs out all that feelings. Perhaps the best way is to do what was mentioned in his blog. Both of us has been hurt quite badly in different ways, so I guess let time do its healing.

I cannot say in the future that everything will be ok… So I will have to see whatever comes… Its not about being in control right now, I would rather leave everything to Cupid.

In the meantime, this will also leave me more time to spend time with myself, and do the things I wanted to do so badly. I got into the Sun Technology Program in my faculty. Woohoo! (that’s a piece of good news) Congrats to wei jian and cheng yi. They too, have gotten in

This is the second step of my personal journey. The acceptance into the program, is quite significant to me. The third step would be on internship, and I hope to shine through it there.

The Gal
Nicole