Warning: rant post. If you are not in the mood to read, do not read on. I’m better now that I got it off my chest

(Wrote this on the way to work, thus have no idea how to set the rest of the content to hide)

Just had a close shave of what would tantamount to me flying a punch at a perfect stranger.

To put it simply, I glared at her because she keeps taking up space of the train seat, constantly jabbing her elbow at me. She knew I glared at her and started to bitch about me.

“If she is so upset, she can move to other seats what, got other space, why sit beside me?” All that in an angry tone to her husband.

In no mood to argue or fight, or maybe almost lose control and punch, I got up, said “xxxx you” and walked away to an empty seat in the next cabin.

It could have turned ugly, but I am glad I walked away before I make things ugly. I fought my angry monster.

Oh yes, mum, if you’re reading this (which I am sure you will), don’t ask me. Thanks.

Nothing to rave about. I just want to write it all out before I drive my inner self nuts.

On hindsight, I could have sat there to irritate her further, but I would rather have a journey of peace to work, than put up with stupid grumbles.

Good thursday to all.

Nicole

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with each trudging step, rain poured on her mercilessly.
it soaked every piece of clothing she had on her…
drenching and washes away all the troubles she’s facing.

No, don’t worry, I didn’t catch a chill nor was I soaked in the rain. Its a random expression that was floating around my head…

Perhaps I am too tired to even try to bother explaining myself on this blog or whatsoever. I’m tired of having to answer every single question in my life. The answers will arrive with time, but for now, the beauty slumber awaits my presence into a dream realm.

Nicole

Perhaps we are all too connected to the social networks these days that everything seem to happen too fast too furious, or rather, being overwhelmed with loads of information online.

These days, I’m filtering the information as fast as I see them. If there is something I would like to read, I would book mark it or simply add a favorite to my twitter. Its easier that way to backtrack and read it in pockets of spare time.

However, when I disconnect myself from the Internet, it becomes all too clear that majority of the chaos are removed, leaving me more time to sort myself out, enjoying connecting with people that matter.

And in a nutshell, I do start to feel better, at the very least, preventing myself from sliding further down depression.

I wouldn’t dare say that I’ve completely walked out of it, though I am making progress at preventing it from recurring in the future. Its for myself, and I’m gonna be darn proud of it when I walk out of this darkness.

Well, if anyone of you are looking for me, you know of ways to reach me, apart from social networks. (I will still check my social networks from time to time, but won’t be updating too frequently).

Alright, this wraps up my little update and off I am to prepare photographs for uploading.

Nicole

Each event, no matter the magnitude of it, never failed to leave me impressions, or change my perspective towards certain aspects of life.

You might say that I am somewhat easily influenced, though I will let it brood at the back of my mind, questioning every nook and cranny till I’m satisfied.

Perhaps some of you may wonder what I’m going through. I won’t write it here, but if you know it, you know. If not, then, what else can I say?

I can only be grateful and thankful for what I have at the moment, and leaving the rest to His hands. I can only but hope things will get even better.

Mental exhaustion is never fun, and leaves me very much physically tired out too. Or perhaps its a character moulding test.

Nicole

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Lyrics after the jump!

This song has been on my repeat playlist for 2 days in a row. I don’t know if its the infectious rhythm that got me hooked to it, or that I simply love the energy and vibe from the music video. Which ever it is, as long as it puts me in groovy mood, it’s awesome!

more…

The weekends came and went… marking the end of one week and the start of another. What seems mundane of just 2 rest days amidst 5 hard grinding days of work is marked with sheer emotions from an end of a spectrum to the other. It’s as if the raging hormones (for a lack of a better word) never cease to work its wonders.

I also learnt new things about myself, its scary yet liberating at the same time, perhaps there is more I must do for myself. In the meantime, life goes on as per normal as it always does, and may it pave a route for recovery.

Nicole

How’s everyone doing?

As for me, things could be better, but I’m thankful in more than one way… Each step hopefully shall transcend into something positive and beautiful, but I shall just stop at that and leave everything into His hands.

There are many things that I want to share here, but till I get my thoughts organized and worked out some of the issues that’s bugging me, I shall leave my blog as it is.

But, don’t worry, I will be filling it with other content as and when possible.

Semi-hiatus.

Nicole

March is here!

I’m glad to put the troubled month of February behind me. Triple whammy of sorts hit me, severely throwing me off balance.

Took a while to find my two feet and get back on. Making plans is not easy, but execution won’t be easy either. Either way, I’ve bitten the bullet.

I shall not elaborate too much at this point, lest its jinxed by unwanted factors.

Would much rather focus on healing one step at a time and be a happier, stronger person.

I may have been killed, but I am clawing my way up bit by biy.

Nicole

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