**Mood: Chirpy, Happy, and Grinning from ear to ear =D**

Happy 5th month my dearest, I love u.

24th may 2006, is the day where we mark the 5th month of our relationship. We went through many ups and downs, with many more down the road, which we dunno if it will be good or bad. =)

We are still going strong and still very much in love with each other. nudges The Guy *giggles* LoL.  U and ur geeky post =D LoL.

Sometimes we wonder if we have the time to really seat down and take a walk down memory lane. I mean, time flies faster than ever before, and sad to say, our commitments to DD results in even less time to spend with each other, cos u never know the last minute meetings that may crop up or last min matters, especially in the publications committee. LoL.

There are so many things that we wanna do together, but no time. there are so many moments we wish we could spend together, but no time. oh well.

As I am blogging this on my laptop, the the train has passed through so many stations and now its approaching Lavender. Time flies when u take out something to do.

Currently, I am working on 2 SMRT designs. as well as desperately and hardworkingly (is there such a word) to learn new things. and yes, The Guy and I need a part time job. I gave up too many chances to work. all thanks to u know what.

Now I can’t. I have to make full use of every chance that I get and knowing that chance dun come by all the time, it falls upon me to make the best use of it and excel.

The Guy is right, he encouraged me to make use of it. he wanted to be a pilot, but he could not, because of parental restriction… U will find ur new dream =)

Now that I have the gateway to try, whats holding me back? Is it because of the fear of failing, the fear of jealousy, the fear of not being able to make it. Is it just me? But I have nth to lose and everything to gain if I try hard enough. and I will lose everything if I dun try. Its as good as failing already, cos when u dun try, u lose.

The road ahead may be really tough, but I am not ready to give up. I want to try, and no matter how hard, I still will not give up. It will be a long and hard road, and I am sure there will be people supporting me in everything that I do.

My feelings are a little unsure. =? That’s how I can sum it all up. as in I am unsure abt the next path to take. just go ahead and try? Regardless of the outcome?

I think I should, after all, I am still young, I dun wanna regret when I am old. No way.
I know I have my flaws, and I am working on improving them. I dun want to scare or hurt anyone. *sorry* if I did.  =)

The Gal
Nicole