a little confession.

March 27, 2008 9:56 am Nicole my life

If I say I am charging on with courage in life, I’m lying. For at the moment, I feel exactly the opposite. The fear eats me up, bit by bit, byte by byte… (anything lower than a byte?) I can’t explain the fear to my dear readers yet… Not on a public scale anyway.

On the other note, there are a lot of things waiting to be done on my part. Procrastination at its best. Oh well. A major part of it is due to me being fearful. Till I move on and conquered this fear, I’ll find it very hard to get back my usual bounce of life and press on.

I feel like I am slipping away… my defenses are weak and vulnerable. I feel so vulnerable, so unworthy, and so afraid. Too scared in a little corner of the world… I speak with a whisper, a shadow of my former self.

I need a break. A real break. So so tired.

By the way, I am not referring to anyone. Just me.

Nicole
14 Responses

  1. SuRfsLaYeR :

    Date: March 27, 2008 @ 12:10 pm

    *hugs* :)

  2. magicalstar :

    Date: March 27, 2008 @ 7:11 pm

    jia you jia you! keep your chin up! Hope you find the strength to move forwards! :D

    [and yea a nibble is smaller than a byte, half a byte really (4 bits).]

  3. Mintea :

    Date: March 27, 2008 @ 8:33 pm

    *hugs*

    Hang in there.

  4. chillycraps :

    Date: March 27, 2008 @ 9:03 pm

    … and sometimes you also must learn to let go

    =)

    take care gal~

  5. snowbiscuits :

    Date: March 27, 2008 @ 9:18 pm

    nicole, gambatte!

  6. te nsai :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 12:41 am

    i have felt the same way.

  7. nicole :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 9:38 am

    @SuRfsLaYeR: *hugs*

  8. nicole :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 9:38 am

    @magicalstar: thanks girl! :) haha… anything smaller than a nibble? :P

  9. nicole :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 9:39 am

    @te nsai: i see, and i hope you are feeling better :)

  10. nicole :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 9:39 am

    @snowbiscuits: thanks, same to you too! gambatte!

  11. nicole :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 9:40 am

    @chillycraps: yeah, its time to learn how to let go…

  12. nicole :

    Date: March 28, 2008 @ 9:43 am

    @Mintea: I will, thanks :)

  13. magicalstar :

    Date: April 2, 2008 @ 10:37 pm

    haha i think bits are the smallest. the person who named them must have been really hungry…

  14. nicole :

    Date: April 3, 2008 @ 2:27 pm

    @magicalstar: LOL! hahaha… perhaps so… or are u feeling hungry when you wrote this comment? :P