Okay, enough of wordy posts from me… 3 posts in a row, and I think your eyes must be feeling tired.
So allow me to share with you one of my favourite Youtube videos – Firework by Katy Perry.
This video struck a chord with me, and I totally enjoyed her vocals… It also served as a source of inspiration to carry on even when I’m facing obstacles in my way. May this song light up your day too!
- This post is written and scheduled to publish when you are reading it.
This is one of the days where the brain don’t match up well with the mood. I’m most probably showing signs of very high amount of stress. I shall take the night off and rest I guess, when I get home.
Mood’s totally off. I hope to feel better real soon, when 3 papers are down on 16th April. I shall have to work on my FYP then.
Sitting down all alone in the living room, with a laptop, and a whirling ceiling fan, I was in a deep in thought, along with a nice rhythm of tap tap tap from one of the best keyboards I ever used.
Reflecting that is. Reflecting upon my feelings, the journey of life, and is there anything I can do for myself? Yes, I am missing the boyfriend pretty badly, but it won’t be long before he comes back. Small matter.
I always wondered if I am the cause of some things that happen to people around me, regardless good nor bad. And no, I am simply not referring to anything. I guess when reflective mood hits me, it hits. No triggers, nothing.
Looking back, perhaps 7 years before, marks the start of something new. A new me. A side of me that change alongside growing up. Gone were the days of anger, hate, and pretty much negative feelings, that I could almost end up killing a person. I was pretty violent, full of anguish.
Oh yes, I was totally different from what I am now and in the past. Friend whom known me from poly onwards would know the difference. I had my dark past… I gone through stuff I wish I wasn’t going through then, but now, it’s a blessing indeed to have gone through it.
With deepest thanks I can give, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for being able to accept me as who I am. And thank you for being there for me when I am at my lowest point.
To be awfully sure, I wasn’t really going to launch a thank you speech here in this post.
Ok, something less depressing to fill this blog space!
Music by Utada Hikaru – This is Love.
I like it, though I don’t really understand the lyrics lol~ but I like the uplifting rhythm. It might just help chase my the blues mood away.
Each time I fall, I will pick myself up and move on, and this is one of the times I fell. It just gotten harder to get up, but my friends rallied around me, and got me back to my feet. I will take baby steps and become happier and stronger than before.
At this point in time, thank you for being understanding to my situation of the coming weeks. Till 5th May is over, I am more or less stuck in a sticky situation. And I know its temporary.
Thanks to all whom offered their listening ear and support. It means a lot to me, and I am glad to have you around.
I have taken a plurk vacation, and a twitter hiatus. The only thing that I can’t give up, is this blog, because it has been my source of maintaining sanity.
I have some reviews that I have yet to release, and I feel apologetic, but I thank you for your understanding…
Last but not least, I know I am not the only one going through this, and I will be able to ride out of this.
I never felt so overwhelmed by the current workload and the pressure I am facing. Yes, so the term is coming to an end, yet I still feel so strangled and tangled within the work that I have to finish. Whatever comes after graduation, is already planned, and it’s a matter of time before I run with that plan.
But prior to the exams, being overwhelmed and stressed isn’t helping much either… Thus I end up not being myself.
I know I’m not my usual self. Or rather, this is a stark contrast of what I used to be like.
I will be back, hopefully, maybe stronger and happier…
My playlists rarely features chinese songs… so when I get hooked to some of it, chances are I will be listening to it alot… and yes, this time, its the group Da Mouth!
Here are some of the songs that I really really like… Ok, it’s catchy, and they are all so gorgeous good looking people!!! oooh, I like
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow–
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor’s cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out–
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit–
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.
- Author unknown
It’s one of my source of inspiration that I can rely on in times of need such as of now.
