Lost its colour
I lost sight of the finishing line
Struggling…
I lost the moments I can really smile
and not be bogged down by all these…
I know I am not alone
But its awful…
When will this be over?
It better be soon…
When it’s over,
I so need a break.
I need not say more…
I feel defeated.
I’m tired.
Extremely tired.
I feel like giving it all up.
I feel like dropping everything that I am holding right now.
I feel defeated, and drained.
I feel that it’s the end.
As I push along all the work and assignments, not to mention the dreaded 3 letter words that all final year students will scream at… the end of the 4 year race is almost over…
I stare before the sight of the finishing line, wondering if I still have the strength to move on, for I am sapped of energy, and not much motivation left to get to the finishing line, where a treasure box awaits to be opened.
I have an idea of what kind of treasure I would get… but that’s not the point. The point would be, how to pace myself for that one last surge? The surge to last from NOW till Early May?
I can feel the key to the treasure glowing and shining in my pocket already… but I need to know, how am I going to last the last stretch of the marathon?
Nicole
Happy Lunar New Year! 
May the Year of the Ox brings about prosperity, good health, and to businessmen, more wealth
Of course, not forgetting the female Ox.
(My house decorations)
May everyone collect loads of ang paos.
HUAT AH!
Do take care of your health, because of all the yummy goodies, and the festive dishes *Can’t wait to have Yu Sheng*
Nicole
Today’s Friday, TGIF, some may say. Indeed, its TGIF.
I am still reeling from what has happened yesterday, but I am glad that it all came out well.
Admiring the rose that he gave to me yesterday, its a small keychain type, but really sweet as a mini-surprise… The past few days of last week and this week were trying times, and I am glad to have friends for company, to weather through it all. *hugs*
The adrenaline is slowly wearing off, and I am about to hit reality, but it has left a different and changing impact on me.
Have a great weekend~
Nicole
PS: Regular review posts resumes next week!
Each day passes with uncertainty, stress, anxiety. My mind’s sometimes is so disturbed that I felt as if I gone mad.
There’s so much school work for me to do, and it has creep into every aspect of my life. I can’t sleep well, nor eat very well.
=S
Nicole
Its the first weekend of the new school semester for me, and honestly, I ain’t enjoying it as much as the previous semesters. Probably because of the unusually high level of stress resulting from my Final Year Project.
I have till March to complete everything, and looking at the list of to-dos, it looks really impossible. Will have to make the impossible possible (if you get what I mean).
My stress levels are nearing my red line of limit, and some other matters also have triggered my emotional backlash on myself.
Thanks all for your concern I will be ok. Special thanks to the 2 handsome guys for being my listening ear *wink* *you know who you are* 
As of now, I am recovering from a bout of cough, and wouldn’t want to spread the germs around. So self-ground at home, while rushing my interim report. Sad right? But what to do. Suck thumb and finish it.
I know I can finish it, because I still want some me time for myself tomorrow. Not much, but better than nothing!
With love,
Nicole
I feel sick.
Physically and Mentally sick.
Sick till I write like that.
I’ve no mood to to anything.
I’ve no drive to see things through.
Nicole
PS: I am down with stuffy nose and cough.
PPS: I don’t even have the mood to go out.
As I looked out from the car window, I felt a sense of loss leaving 2008 behind, and embraced the welcome of 2009. Its been a great year for me, and crossing into 2009 brings a sense of change and uncertainty. A gentle nudge, and a big hug was all that its needed to put the sense of loss away.
2007 and 2008 brought me so much changes in my life, and I feel blessed to be surrounded by wonderful friends, and the blessings that I received. It still amazes me.
By mid 09, I would have graduated from University, and will be joining the work force full time. Also a time where I will start paying back my debts… (the thought of it still scares me)
Now excuse me while I sit by the table with a cup of coffee, notebook, laptop, and thinking about the year ahead of me.
Nicole
Wordpress 2.7 interface is so far so good. Putting many functions at the edge of my fingertips, I like!
Thus you will be able to see me blogging more short posts like these from now on. But I try not to do it so often, cos it will affect my mood to write my usual articles of course.
Nicole
