The past 72 hours ain’t an easy period to pass. In fact, during which, I never felt this down for quite a while. Looking back, yes, its silly, but then again, I admit, I ain’t strong enough to resolve it as yet. It will take a while to blow over, and till then, I’m taking it nice and slow (I hope)

Funny how badly I take towards some work issues, but I guess I shouldn’t let it affect me too much, after all, it’s work (to put it blatantly). Dealing it with professionalism than attaching too much feelings into it will make it easier to cope when stupid things happen.

The storm will pass, so they say, and yes, this too will pass.

A happier and stronger me will emerge from this dark shell.

To the friends who care, thank you.
To the friends who accepts me as who I am, a double thank you.
To the friends who constantly looks out for me, infinite thanks.

To the bf, thanks for being there for me.

Nicole

Woah, this month has gotten to be one of the least updated period on my blog. LOL. Just look at the calendar widget and you will understand. For those whom wonder, I am still alive and kicking, though work can be energy zapping.

A whole load of backlog to handle, and not to mention the never-ending process of filter and editing photos… Ain’t too fun, but nonetheless, it’s quite awesome to see the photos

I may not own a powerful machine to do complex PP, nor a DSLR, but it will never stop me from taking photos of what I desire.

I shall head back to finish my selection of the Singapore Garden Festival, and then more stuff.

Nicole

Been busy at work lately… and trying to get as much rest as I can. LOL. Of course, trying to get my life altogether straightened out once more.

I’m fine, just feeling the strain of the long hours at times, and of course, constantly wanting sleep. Dreadful. Weekends are more precious than ever.

Slowly but surely, I guess I am feeling ready to leave the past behind

Nicole

Many would have known that I’m still undergoing my skin treatment to treat acne/scars, since September 2009.

Lately, my skin has become more sensitive, due to the course of treatment, and minor irritants aside, I’m actually starting to see more results.

Another 16 dose of Oratane tablets (once a week) and night application of cream to reduce and keep the redness of the cheeks in check, would be my annual revision.

Keeping fingers cross that the review examination will determine if my treatment continues or stopped.

Now it’s time to do a before and after comparison. But first, let me go dig up the ugliest photo of myself

I would admit that it’s my own fault for not taking care of my skin well whilst during the growing up years, but I am very thankful that my skin condition is treatable.

Lest you say that I did it for vanity sake, I would say yes (who doesn’t want to look good?) and no, I did it also because to help boost my self esteem and confidence (now that’s another story altogether).

Looks like it’s one of the birthday presents I could give myself

Drop me a note if you are keen to know where I sought treatment from.

xoxo,
Nicole

Can’t imagine I am stuck at home writing, whilst recovering from a sneaky attack of flu. Ok, weather changes affect me badly sometimes, coupled with inadequate sleep, it’s a disaster waiting to happen.

I guess the only thing I look forward is to eat and sleep. And pray that I will recover in time before another hectic work week.

Argh.

Nicole

Whatever I am doing, I could almost see the ending. The victory may be bitter sweet, but it’s definitely not the end.

Rather, the Beginning.

I never once felt good about myself, because of the past, my looks, confidence and esteem. But it’s all changing for the better, and in the process, I learn more about myself.

Confusion may set in, puzzlement in time, but as I figure my way out, I feel liberated. I never felt this much of joy, and accepting myself as who I am.

The realization couldn’t have come at a better time, and right smacked in the middle of 2010, it’s the right time.

It will take a lot more to reveal what I am going through, but in time to come, all will be revealed.

There are some people I would have to thank for, because they have shown me that it’s possible.

Nicole

Cold and stormy saturday morning… and a freezing lab. wow, what more can I ask for?

The month of June has started well I guess, with work taking up a huge chunk of my time as well. The sacrifices will be worth it, because I am to complete the project real soon! It’s a miracle.

Will spend 2 Saturdays working, but very looking forward to after work dinners. Of course, I can’t wait to be able to sit down for some me-time.

Yikes, I should stop writing now and get back to work

Nicole

It’s the first day of June, which means half of year 2010 has flown by.

Wow, and do think that 6 months flew this fast, what’s to be said for the other 6 months? If I thought 2009 was a crazy year, I would be very wrong. By far, 2010 has surpassed most of my expectations (ok, my expectations were low)…

Life’s up and down like a rollercoaster, but I will get by, I know I will.

Perhaps the best of all is learning how to be at ease with myself, letting go and have a good time.

August would be an exciting month, hopefully. Apart from that I guess it’s back to the daily grind.

And yes! Look out for some interesting posts along the way this week. The next one’s scheduled to be published tomorrow!

Nicole

Woken up this morning on a hot and sunny Saturday, and it struck me at the state of confusion that I am in. Am I being too impatient with my current circumstances? Or am I just torn?

Or a good girl gone bad?

I never felt so awkward really, trying to find out who I am, or perhaps I am trying too hard. I lost count the number of times that I fight myself… the times I break down and cry, because of the empty void in the heart…

I really don’t know what else to do. I really don’t.

Save me, someone, please?

the inner Nicole

Tuesday’s Gala Premiere of Sex and the City 2 certainly marked the start of this awesome and busy week! It’s so nice to have met up with fellow bloggers to watch the movie at GV Vivo, and thanks for the invite, Amelia! Am glad to have been able to make it, and I quite enjoyed the movie, though am not a huge fan of SATC.

Went to Resort World’s Hard Rock Hotel Starz Restaurant yesterday, and I must add that I had a blast with the other photographers, eating, laughing and snap photos. Write up will come real soon, but my first hurdle would be sorting through the photos, and touch them up if needed.

Tonight will be another night out, and my, I think I am getting old already lor. LOL! Yeah, but it certainly feels fun to be spending time with friends

Yes, Pixar’s writeup is coming, in a day or two.

Keep an eye out on it!

Nicole