I just came back from taking Angel to the vet for her annual checkup and vaccination. Well, it’s my first visit to the vet, and quite amazed at seeing the type of dogs and cats others keep. Angel is M’s cat, but I treat her like mine. My folks do not allow me to bring a cat home, or I would have done that eons ago.

As of right now, I think everything is getting back on track slowly, and I am very thankful and happy about it. Only time will tell, but I guess things are in a good start for now. I realized that there are small and subtle changes in my life, that’s making life bearable and giving me the courage to live on, and be happy. It still isn’t easy at times, though at least the thought of negativity is reducing. Its good to know that I’m surrounded by people who loves me, and care for me. That to me, is an important aspect of my life.

I’ve also learned that I cannot please everyone, but the first person I can please is myself.

Ok. enough of my random rubbish. Time to sit down and start reading.

Nicole

In this month alone, I quit my job of two years and three months, bidding farewell to the IT industry that I was trained to work in since in the Polytechnic and University. But at the end of the day, I realized that this was not what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. In fact, I did not do very well in my degree, getting by with a series of C’s and D’s, and at one time, even failing a module. So what if I hold a Computer Science Degree? Its like what the rest would coin the term as, “toilet paper”.

It is a known fact that at least 85% of the people who entered their chosen degree course end up doing something else, and yours truly is now part of this percentage too. However, I do not regret the switch to my new career path. Why? The fact that I am so unhappy with my first job that I had to do something for myself, or risk a trip to the Institute of Mental Health (IMH). You could probably figure out how awful I felt, or never really understand. That’s alright. I’m learning to put the unhappy past behind me and move on.

I’ve also came to terms with myself, and it still is quite a journey, to realize something about myself every few days or so. I have not lost my temper that often as I used to in the past. And I am leading a much more satisfying and fruitful life than before. Perhaps, this is a fitting ending before the beginnings of age 26.

Whilst penning this post, I’m 2 days shy turning 26. It may be well be a turning point of my life. My counselor is right. I’ve to find something what I like to do and be happy doing it. It does helps me get through the low points of working more easily, and having a cheery office helps, with all that bright colors and an awesome smack in the city center location, I really can’t ask for more. The road ahead will not be smooth, but I am more prepared than I was a few years ago.

Nicole

its no mystery to what has happened, just that the severity was quite unexpected. but i hope it will be a thing of the past soon… and so, this post will mark the start of a proper recovery.

as i slowly get back to writing gradually, i will also take time to indulge in more things that i want to do. its a good way to destress i reckon.

nicole

Bought them from SHUP(G), and I pretty much fell for most of their accessories, as they feature quirky and fun looking stuff into necklaces, bracelets, brooches.

Do check them out! Of course, the accessory in this photo isn’t for myself, its for the sister…

And this beauty was made possible thanks to the customization that Dawne from Earring Addict made for me.

By now, you would have realize that I love camera shaped pendants, and this addition is no surprise.

Nicole

Nonetheless, its been quite an adventure of sorts for me, apart from the on going hulabalu…if you know what I mean. I could probably declare that the worst is over, or maybe not. In any case, it won’t be very nice to jinx my chances.

I’m glad that the week is almost over and looking forward to spend time in the outdoors. Its good to be able to bask in the lovely sunshine, amongst the call of insects, lush trees and priceless company. Blissful eh?

Truth be told, I don’t know how many enjoy reading my daily muses on my blog, but I will still write them anyway, apart from other content found here as well.

May you have a great weekend ahead, and excuse me while I disconnect to connect once more.

Nicole

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These days, I’m filtering the information as fast as I see them. If there is something I would like to read, I would book mark it or simply add a favorite to my twitter. Its easier that way to backtrack and read it in pockets of spare time.

However, when I disconnect myself from the Internet, it becomes all too clear that majority of the chaos are removed, leaving me more time to sort myself out, enjoying connecting with people that matter.

And in a nutshell, I do start to feel better, at the very least, preventing myself from sliding further down depression.

I wouldn’t dare say that I’ve completely walked out of it, though I am making progress at preventing it from recurring in the future. Its for myself, and I’m gonna be darn proud of it when I walk out of this darkness.

Well, if anyone of you are looking for me, you know of ways to reach me, apart from social networks. (I will still check my social networks from time to time, but won’t be updating too frequently).

Alright, this wraps up my little update and off I am to prepare photographs for uploading.

Nicole

Lyrics after the jump!

This song has been on my repeat playlist for 2 days in a row. I don’t know if its the infectious rhythm that got me hooked to it, or that I simply love the energy and vibe from the music video. Which ever it is, as long as it puts me in groovy mood, it’s awesome!

Lyrics: (taken from DirectLyrics)
J-LO!

It’s a new generation
Of party people

Darling get on the floor
Darling get on the floor

Let me introduce you to my party people
In the club…

[Pitbull]
I’m loose
And everybody knows I get off the train
Baby it’s the truth
I’m like inception I play with your brain
So I don’t sleep I snooze
I don’t play no games so don’t get it confused no
Cos you will lose yeah
Now pump it up
And back it up like a Tonka truck

[Jennifer Lopez]
If you go hard you gotta get on the floor
If you’re a party freak then step on the floor
If your an animal then tear up the floor
Break a sweat on the floor
Yeah we work on the floor
Don’t stop keep it moving
Put your drinks up
Pick your body up and drop it on the floor
Let the rhythm change your world on the floor
You know we’re running sh*t tonight on the floor
Brazil Morocco
London to Ibiza
Straight to LA, New York
Vegas to Africa

[Chorus]
Dance the night away
Live your life ,and stay young on the floor
Dance the night away
Grab somebody drink a little more
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor

[Verse 2]
I know you got it clap your hands on the floor
And keep on rockin’, rock it up on the floor
If you’re a criminal kill it on the floor
Steal it quick on the floor, on the floor
Don’t stop keep it moving
Put your drinks up
Its getting ill it’s getting sick on the floor
We never quit, we never rest on the floor
If I ain’t wrong we’ll probably die on the floor
Brazil Morocco
London to Ibiza
Straight to LA, New York
Vegas to Africa

[Chorus]
Dance the night away
Live your life, and stay young on the floor
Dance the night way
Grab somebody drink a little more
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor

[Pibull]
That badonka donk is like a trunk full of bass on an old school Chevy
All I need is some vodka and some… coke
And watch… get donkey konged
… if you’re ready for things to get heavy
I get on the floor and act a fool if you let me
Don’t believe me just vet me
My name ain’t Keath but I see why you Sweat me
L.A. Miami New York
Say no more get on the floor

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Tonight we gon’ be it on the floor

The weekends came and went… marking the end of one week and the start of another. What seems mundane of just 2 rest days amidst 5 hard grinding days of work is marked with sheer emotions from an end of a spectrum to the other. It’s as if the raging hormones (for a lack of a better word) never cease to work its wonders.

I also learnt new things about myself, its scary yet liberating at the same time, perhaps there is more I must do for myself. In the meantime, life goes on as per normal as it always does, and may it pave a route for recovery.

Nicole

I’m glad to put the troubled month of February behind me. Triple whammy of sorts hit me, severely throwing me off balance.

Took a while to find my two feet and get back on. Making plans is not easy, but execution won’t be easy either. Either way, I’ve bitten the bullet.

I shall not elaborate too much at this point, lest its jinxed by unwanted factors.

Would much rather focus on healing one step at a time and be a happier, stronger person.

I may have been killed, but I am clawing my way up bit by biy.

Nicole

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A new work week has arrived. Some would say the new work week for the lunar year… and indeed… after 4 long days of break, it’s a bit difficult to kick start the engine.

Now excuse me while I douse myself with coffee.

Have a lovely day!

Nicole

PS: Shall write more when time permits

In case you do not know, I’m out of a relationship. It happened fairly recently though. Perhaps its the best arrangement. Perhaps LDR isn’t for me. Or perhaps, he isn’t the one.

I do not wish to disclose any more information through this blog. I’m not alright, but I will be okay with the passage of time.

Perhaps I shall have the courage to start believing in love once more.

Nicole

Funnily, coming May 2011, would mark about 6 years of blogging. That’s quite some period of time, in my opinion, considering how I first started out with Blogspot. Its funny how I now cringe at the writings of my own in the past, when I read my archives from time to time. They serve as memory banks, evoking the emotions of the then events and happenings.

Suffice to say, my blog has seen me through my best and worse times of life. Its something that I could turn to, to seek solace even if I am troubled, and the best part is being able to write them all down, though not necessarily publishing those entries. Kind of a venting outlet.

So, from now on, onwards to mix haphazardness of the content that I will be writing about. If you have any in particular, just drop me a note via email!

Nicole

Time passes quickly when one is engrossed in doing things one enjoys. I am glad to have a long break from 31st December 2010 till 4th January 2011. I didn’t manage to travel out of Singapore, but nonetheless, am able to catch some much needed rest and getting a brief respite from everyday mundaneness.

You may be wondering what did I do, given that I had a nasty viral infection that left me scrambling to the doctor on 30th December 2010, after finishing work. Given a bunch of medicines meant not being able to party on NYE. Bummer, but the consolation was I manage to recover fast this time around, thanks to some awesome tender loving care and loads of fresh air. Manage to get out to Changi Village to enjoy the fresh air and sea breeze along its boardwalk.

Slept straight into the new year, and awoke to a day of leisure shopping and indulgences… tea, cakes, in Cedele amidst the heavy rain that poured upon Orchard, not a bad start at all. Dashed to attend first service of the year, at 8 am, totally ungodly, but its all worth it. After which, brunch was in order before going home to pack my room, and I am awfully glad I threw out so much junk that even my mum was beaming after she saw the before and after state of my room.

And yesterday, I went on my first shore trip for this year, observing and learning more about our local shores ( more coming up in another post), and it will be more or less of my personal project for the year.

Fast forward to today, which is the last day of my break, and yet I am feeling alright, though a little sad that its over, but I guess, as long as I’m happy, thats all it matters. Taking it real easy today, reading, blogging and of course, being phoneless is a good choice now (well, I left my phone battery at home, and didn’t thought that the plan would be switched and activated so quickly!)

Have yourself a very lovely Tuesday too!

Nicole

Year 2011 has arrived, and cheers to another awesome 12 months.

I ain’t sure what each day will bring, but I savor every moment that I have, be it with myself, family, friends, and my various hobbies. I want to lead a fulfilled life, and one with confidence. I expect 2011 to be a good year, and a blessed year to everyone of you as well.

As for myself, I hope to write even more, and show you my glimpses and moments of life as often as I can.

Shall keep this post short and sweet, as I rest, to recover my strength and health.

This post has been scheduled to publish on 01.01.2011 at 0101 hrs (Done for fun)

Nicole

To summarize, it’s a year of many firsts for me, and all that experiences money couldn’t buy. It has been a year of emotional roller coaster, and in the process of having found myself, and learning to embrace, love thy self.

May 2011 be my best year yet, as I step into it with confidence.

Nicole