The Gal – Nicole

I stumbled upon this website, and read quite a number of motivational poems. But there’s one particular poem that I would like to share with all my readers:

The Vow
By Malcolm O. Varner

No matter how deep the sadness or wide the pain,
I vow to live for a brighter day will come again.

No matter how many mistakes I’ve made in the past,
I vow to live and in the future avoid them, surefooted and fast.

No matter how many tragedies beyond my control take place,
I vow to live and stay my course within this race.

No matter how poor or rich I may ever be,
I vow to live and aspire to search for the dignity in simplicity.

No matter how much a lover may pierce the inner core of my heart,
I vow to live for like spring I’ll get a new start.

No matter how isolated and alone I may feel,
I vow to live and do something for someone else to heal.

No matter how hopeless my situation my appear,
I vow to live and reflect until my viewpoint is clear.

No matter what happens in this life – good or bad
I vow to live, do my best, and just for living – be glad.

It resonates well within me, and having an extended period of time to rest also allows me to redefine certain fundamentals that I hold so dear to. It’s amazing isn’t it, that life can be seen from so many different perspectives, and that even in the most hopeless situation, there is a glimmer of hope.

With love,
Nicole

It’s 30th of March.

Sitting down all alone in the living room, with a laptop, and a whirling ceiling fan, I was in a deep in thought, along with a nice rhythm of tap tap tap from one of the best keyboards I ever used.

Reflecting that is. Reflecting upon my feelings, the journey of life, and is there anything I can do for myself? Yes, I am missing the boyfriend pretty badly, but it won’t be long before he comes back. Small matter.

I always wondered if I am the cause of some things that happen to people around me, regardless good nor bad. And no, I am simply not referring to anything. I guess when reflective mood hits me, it hits. No triggers, nothing.

Looking back, perhaps 7 years before, marks the start of something new. A new me. A side of me that change alongside growing up. Gone were the days of anger, hate, and pretty much negative feelings, that I could almost end up killing a person. I was pretty violent, full of anguish.

Oh yes, I was totally different from what I am now and in the past. Friend whom known me from poly onwards would know the difference. I had my dark past… I gone through stuff I wish I wasn’t going through then, but now, it’s a blessing indeed to have gone through it.

With deepest thanks I can give, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for being able to accept me as who I am. And thank you for being there for me when I am at my lowest point.

To be awfully sure, I wasn’t really going to launch a thank you speech here in this post.

Almost a quarter of the year has passed. Wow.

Nicole

Every time December rolls around, I would always feel that another year is almost over, and began to ponder what I’ve done for the past 11 months since January. As if 2007 has not been a fruitful year for me, but 2008 was equally, if not, more smashing than ever.

Up till now in the point of writing, I still can’t believe at some of the impacting changes, but I’ve since learnt to accept it and embrace what it brings along with it.

I spent a good half of year 2008 doing my internship at one of the local companies (’nuff said about which coy, you readers should know) Known new friends there, and also being able to secure a good grade and award is kinda amazing, because I ain’t expecting such a high grade myself. I just did my best and left the rest to Him.

Am quite happy and glad to have opportunities to be invited to attend events, product launches and parties as well, not to mention the numerous gatherings with friends and bloggers It’s been really great to be spending time with you all, and I am still so looking forward to it coming 2009 and more! I would like to take the opportunity to thank all the kind folks for sending event invites, and products to review

Celebrated the 3rd year of blogging in style, by organizing my first blog contest, being one of the featured bloggers on Blog2u, and adding variety of content on to my blog. Live blogging was a first, and to say the least, it has its own challenges (i like)

Became part of the Tech65 crew, and am still The only Girl in there. Am definitely on the lookout for more tech babes to join me! The guys won’t mind. lol.

Found the love of my life, I can’t ask for more.

Its also a year filled with personal growth, and getting in touch with oneself… For that, I am grateful, and growing up at a pace I like myself to be.

Overall, I wouldn’t have traded anything for such a wonderful experience. Though there are up and down moments in life, but life still will go on, till the day we stop breathing.

I hope year 2008 has also been a great year for you too

Nicole